I am participating in this month’s DSMA Blog Carnival and the prompt for May is:
What do you consider to be your Diabetes Strengths? What do you think are your Diabetes Weaknesses?
I’ll start with my weaknesses so I can end on a good note :). I’m HORRIBLE at counting out chips. I love chips (way more than sweets) and I could eat a whole bag if given the chance. Whenever chips come in my presence, I know that my blood sugar is going to be high. It’s inevitable no matter how hard I try. My husband always tells me to put the chips in a cup so I don’t eat more than I think but that isn’t nearly as appetizing to me.
I’m bad at changing my lancet. I’m pretty sure I have gone at least 6 months with one lancet before. I don’t have any evidence that’s the case but I so infrequently change them that at some point I must have gone that long without changing a lancet. While we are talking about finger pricks, I am also bad about using alcohol pads every time to clean my finger. I know this is bad and I’m not sure why I get lazy with this either since who knows what is all over my finger (esp after using my iPhone).
I also suck at changing my infusion set every three days as recommended. For a while there I was changing my CGM sensor every three days and that helped me to change my infusion set every three days but then I learned you could “trick” the sensor into getting another three days out of it and then my infusion set site changes suffered. I think I average about every 4 days if I’m lucky. Some weeks it might end up being every five days and then I get a lovely red mark on my belly.
I’m bad at using or trusting my bolus wizard on my insulin pump. For a long time my basal rates were too high and as a result I would get low a lot if I used my bolus wizard. I hate being low so I would just not use the bolus wizard and I would just SWAG (a new term I learned from DBlog Week meaning Scientific Wild Assed Guess, which when I was double checking to see if it was Ass or Assed I found this awesome post). After a few months of basal testing, I do have much better rates (reduced my rates by half!) so now I am trusting my bolus wizard a little more. Which also brings me to another weakness-pre-bolusing before a meal. I am horrible at this. The main reason I never did this was because my basal rates were never good so I never trusted my bolusing for meals so never thought the pre-bolus was that important. I also worried that I wouldn’t eat all of my meal and I would be left with extra insulin. Well now that I have semi-good basal rates and have the realization that I’ve never not eaten what I thought I was going to eat, I need to start doing this more.
I’m pretty sure I could keep listing a ton of weaknesses I have when it comes to my Diabetes. But I think the biggest weakness I have is my fear of being low. When I was growing up, doctors told my parents it was better for me to be a little high than to risk a low. This created a horrible habit for me because I got way more used to being high than low. If my blood sugar gets below 100, I usually feel low. I am very happy in the 150-200 range. I don’t even feel high in the 200’s. It has to take me to be around 275 before I start to feel slightly bad from a high. My husband and I are trying to start a family in the next year, so I’ve been trying for about 6 months to a year to really get my blood sugars low but it’s so hard. It’s such a hard habit to break. My A1C’s have been in the 7’s and I don’t think my blood sugars are too out of control since I don’t get wild highs usually but staying around 200 is not good to baby to be. I have to start feeling more comfortable around 80-120.
I’m not sure I have as many Diabetes Strengths as I do Weaknesses. Brainstorming the weaknesses ideas flowed easily and resulted in a very long list. Strengths were a little tougher. I’m great at stockpiling supplies. Although this might not technically be a strength, I’m set if something were to happen to my insurance for a little bit (working for a small business you never know what could happen). I have recently started exercising regularly which has helped my overall health. I like to think I eat pretty healthy (with the exception of a chip pigout) so I don’t get crazy highs. I test my blood sugar a LOT, like literally a minimum of 10 times per day, quite different from my college days. I’m organized and can stick to a routine well which is so necessary for good control. And I suppose the greatest strength I have is that I am good with numbers, I am an accountant after all :-P. Being good with numbers is a blessing for diabetes control since bolusing and changing basal rates and all requires a ton of math. I have many strengths and weaknesses when it comes to my diabetes, just like I have good days and bad. I’m still trying everyday to have control over my diabetes and not let it control me. 🙂
“This post is my May entry in the DSMA Blog Carnival. If you’d like to participate too, you can get all of the information at http://diabetessocmed.com/2013/may-dsma-blog-carnival-3/“